Impotencia

-Combinación de rabia y falta de control .

I can take it, I can be who you want me to be, just stay tonight, untill I felt sleep... just stay, say that you love me... just make me feel alive for a few hours then you can say goodbye.

will you stay if I promise to be normal?

I will die for you

but

you won't do the same.

When the life sucks, she always find a way to feel better.

"She dashed into her barthroom, knelt down in front of the white porcelain toilet, and stuck her middle finger down her throat until she gagged. Tears streamed down her face as she hacked up every meal she'd eaten . It was as though there was something terrible inside her and she had to get it out, be free of it. And even though the vomiting part was ugly and disgusting and painful and shameful, she felt immediately batter. She really did."

- It had to be you, GG

After the ugly and painful part, always comes the rainbow. Right?

Have I ever told you?

That I can think in

six ways to die

before breakfast.

Nunca suficiente,siempre sola

-Ale

the tale behind my broken smile

Hace no mucho tiempo, me reconoci a mi misma que odio mi cuerpo, que me doy pena y por eso me escondo en mi cuarto.
Cuando entre a la prepa, queria morir, alli no habia nadie con quien me pudiera sentir identificada, todas ellas parecian salidas de revista y pense "Otros tres años sere invisible". Ese día, cuando llegue a mi casa me tire en la cama y desee con todas mis fuerzas morir o al menos tener un poco mas de valor.
Hasta el día de hoy me sigo odiando, por querer encontrar cariño en la comida, por no poder controlarme.
Hoy todavia sigo llorando por las noches, el no poder ser como los demas, por no poder complacer a mis padres, que aunque no lo digan se que estarian felices si yo fue como unos 20 kilos mas delgada y como 100 veces mas popular, me llena de coraje que hasta mi propio hermano sienta pena de mi, de lo obsesa que soy.